You can’t blame the politicians. You elected them. You turned away from the system. You didn’t run for office. You didn’t write your views down and pass them along to people in power. You didn’t fund campaigns that supported people committed to big solutions. You have become ill-informed, caught up in the name-calling and the partisanship and the climate that created the Washington we have today. You’ve got the government you deserve. Remember, according to the Constitution, the top job in the U.S. government goes to the voter. If these clowns in Washington can’t get it right and you don’t fire them, you deserve what you get. This is not reality television, even though it feels as pointless. This is just reality. And reality, in this democracy, is what the voters make of it. You can’t blame Obama or Boehner. Scarily enough, the TV screen, whether it shows the Kardashians or C-SPAN or cable news, is just a mirror, a reflection of what America wants and is.
Thinking back on it, maybe I wasn’t a great friend. I tried and I’m reminded every single day that it was far too little too late. I guess I didn’t know what I had. Which almost doesn’t make any sense since I should have learned from the past.
If anything, the only thing that I feel like I succeed at is burning bridges. Somehow throwing in the towel when I know I shouldn’t. Finding fault when I told myself I wouldn’t. I just don’t know how to live with myself anymore. Especially on days like today; days when I have so much to say—and knowing that the one person that could understand isn’t here makes me feel even more alone.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
I’ll see you soon.